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Sunday, April 10, 2005

The Story of Bob



I went to the department store to get a gift for my favorite aunt, who'd recently had surgery. It was a Sunday morning, and I was hung over. I had hastily tied a scarf on my unruly hair, and covered my puffy eyes with a large pair of sunglasses.

As I was browsing through the housewares section, I spied Bob. He was in menswear. Not 10 feet away from where I stood. There was no mistaking all six feet and eight inches of him. He stood with a shopping bag slung over his shoulder, and glanced at his watch, a vacant expression in his eyes. That was Bob, with whom, more than half a year ago, I'd rolled around in the sheets on a regular basis for the better part of 3 months. Bob, the guy who loved it when I tickled his earlobe wih my lips. Bob, with whom I'd laughed at the phrase "happy balls". Bob, who took great delight in burying his face between my breasts an inhaling deeply. Bob, who would grin wickedly from ear to ear while tickling me, enjoying the view of my curves bouncing giddily away from his cruel fingers.

Bob, who always seemed to want to come over after 11PM on weeknights. Bob, the guy who threw a fit when I called him at home instead of text messaging him. Bob, the guy who was nervous about parking his car on the street. Bob, whose calls I did not return after I figured out that he was sleeping with someone else. I nonchalantly fingered the price tags on a nice set of towels, watching him out of the corners of my eyes, and briefly entertained the idea of going over there.

But he wasn't alone. A woman was next to him, examining polo shirts. A petite brunette with a winning smile and laugh lines on her deep-set brown eyes. A woman with a shrill voice and 2 rings on the appropriate fingers of her left hand. But Bob wasn't married, I thought. She called over 2 children. They looked to be about 3 and 7. But Bob didn't have children, I thought. She held up a powder blue shirt to his chest. He smiled a thin smile of exasperation, a faraway look in his eyes. He lifted his left hand and ruffled his sandy-brown hair like he always did, and the gleaming display lights danced off the ring on his finger. I hid behind a display, my breath caught in my chest.

The children darted between the clothing racks, like kids do, as Bob grabbed the shirt from his wife's puzzled hands and stomped off to the changing room. I closed my eyes. Bob who'd sworn to me he was single. Bob who'd said he couldn't stand small children. Bob, who, at the ripe old age of 35, informed me that he had no intention of settling down anytime soon. I heard the sound of my pulse, beating rapidly at my temples. I opened my eyes. I looked over at her, Bob's wife.

I looked at the resignation in her eyes and, for a split second, I felt the need to say something. I rolled the executive pen in the bottom of my purse between my thumb and forefinger. I stared at the blank underside of the price tag I had in my hand. I contemplated writing her a note about the man she loved. I contemplated introducing myself and telling her the truth. For what seemed like an eternity, I plotted several disastrous scenarious in which I could tell her the truth without turning her whole world upside-down. I imagined a situation in which I could come clean about Bob's activities without anyone getting hurt. But I could not justify a single one.

I looked over at her again. She said, "C'mon, kids, let's see what Daddy looks like in this shirt Mommy picked out for him". My heart sank. The smile on her lips belied the exhaustion in her eyes. She looked sad. I felt a lump in my throat. She went down on one knee and held her kids tightly to her chest as they babbled excitedly, sticky cherubic faces pressed firmly against her curly brown hair.

My heart felt heavy all over again, but not for me.

I wiped a single tear off my cheek, turned around, and quietly left the store.

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24 Comments:

Blogger Ken said...

Well done. That had to be a hard thing to just sit there, but you did the right thing.

And if he's smart, he'll do the right by them too.

4/10/05 9:10 PM

 
Blogger True_Halcyon said...

A potent moment, thanks for sharing it.

4/10/05 11:33 PM

 
Blogger Lost_in_Mass_68 said...

That is such a tough situation. Just reinforces my view that 90% of men in the world aren't worth a s--t.

I am a married father of 3 going, about to be 4. I too have thoughts of what it might be like to have a different life. However, once I see the smile of my son and the love in the eys of my wife...I realize it DOESN'T get any better than this. the fantasy ALWAYS seems better than reality but it NEVER is.

'Bob' is the quintessential boy who will never grow up. The sad part is the poor wife and mom who has no idea what she is married to.

4/11/05 7:29 AM

 
Blogger Bent Fabric said...

You did the smart thing, in my opinion. It could've been a icky situation all around. Plus there's a chance she wouldn't have believed you. Either that or she already knows.

Thanks for sharing.

4/11/05 7:56 AM

 
Blogger Gorgeous Girl said...

you did good. he is scum.

4/11/05 11:32 AM

 
Blogger Bubba said...

You are an incredibly gifted writer! You have painted a vivid image of a painful situation.

4/11/05 2:12 PM

 
Blogger xtx said...

a sad story well told.

let's hope he's changed his evil ways and has decided to live the life he signed up for.

4/11/05 2:21 PM

 
Blogger Dausa said...

Such wonderful writing and prose, for such a difficult and draining story. You have my sympathy, my respect, and a small amount of awe.

4/11/05 3:15 PM

 
Blogger Pisser said...

Agh! Sockit to me...!

This was like ten thousand times more powerful than the time I ran into that model boy prick I used to doink in the Rite-Aid, buying a present for obviously some girl, when he never gave me POOP :P

I take that back - he actually DID give me poop...!

Well, I if had to have a cheating spouse, I'd want 'em to cheat on me with YOU! :)

4/11/05 6:47 PM

 
Blogger BlueMoon said...

Too bad you had to learn this in such a jarring manner. Unfortunately, the wife does usually know something is wrong with her relationship but simply keeps pushing it back down into her subconcious and denying it. And any man who isn't looking to settle down, won't take calls at a normal home phone or office phone and you don't get to go visit him plus the other things you mention immediately make me think he's married. Unfortunately, both sexes cheat and oddly enough this stabilizes their limping relationship since their needs are met by others for what is lacking the their marriage. Not saying I believe this is a solution for a cracked relationship, just that facts.

Hope you are doing well.

=)

4/11/05 9:12 PM

 
Blogger Mona Buonanotte said...

I got all misty-eyed at your story. Well done, sister, well done, you did absolutely the right thing!

4/12/05 6:32 AM

 
Blogger Pisser said...

True, all.

And it's really hard to know what the right this IS in a situation that's so wrong.

Especially the part about tickling you 'till you peed. ;)

4/12/05 11:48 AM

 
Blogger bio said...

Ouch. I'm so sorry that you had to experience that. What a horrible feeling. And you absolutely did the right thing. It would have been selfish of you to do otherwise. Even if his wife already knew something was up (and you may not even have been the first or last in your position), it's better to be the unknown "other woman" than the in-your-face "homewrecker." At least you have some semblance of closure, while he will always be a cheat.

4/12/05 1:39 PM

 
Blogger Sharon Secor said...

Hola:

Good choice. For a moment I wavered, as if I were the wife, I'd want to know so I could take appropriate action (or inappropriate, depending on one's perception of the degree to which we are bound by the legal system's assessment of which actions are appropriate or not). However, upon reflection, I realized that in the vast majority of these types of situations, the wife always knows. And, indeed, odds are you (or rather, his affair with you) are not the first indignity she has suffered at the hands of this cad, nor will you be the last. You did the right thing.

Best Regards...

4/12/05 10:15 PM

 
Blogger HazelEyedPisces said...

Frequent reader, usual lurker. Had so many thoughts about this post, just had to delurk. Your writing style and delivery of this story (not the situation!) is heart-achingly beautiful; I too am glad you chose to share it. It's as if, for just a moment, I was there with you in the department store, watching you watch Bob and his family, deciding what to do.

4/13/05 2:13 PM

 
Blogger Avatar said...

Thank you for the compliments, everyone.

4/13/05 3:33 PM

 
Blogger Roonie said...

Omigod. I think that's all I'm capable of saying. That was heartbreaking, and I really felt the dilemma you did. I think you did the right thing...I'm not sure I would've been so noble. Or so controlled. My dad cheated on my mom, so I'm clearly biased...and reactionary. Well done.

4/14/05 3:13 PM

 
Blogger bikipatra said...

very well written and poignant. Better than some best sellers! really, if the man were black it could be a scene right out of an Eric Jerome Dickey novel.

4/15/05 1:41 PM

 
Blogger todd said...

i understand this would be difficult stituation to be in, but would that woman have wanted to know if her relationship is better because of it? I'm just throwing it out there.

Another question, if a relationship has ended, and probably because of communication problems, would a girl want to know, way after the fact, that the guy cheated on her (with no one of importance, STDs aside)?

4/20/05 11:50 AM

 
Blogger A Sistah said...

Well said.

As long as you feel good about what you did, I'm no judge.

U're an excellent writer. All the best.

4/24/05 4:34 AM

 
Blogger Ed Hill said...

Hi,

That was a well written and poignant moment. But I started thinking about this. Maybe you could have told the wife.

Obviously Bob is dishonest. You did not reveal the truth out of pity or compassion for the wife.

But what will happen later?

Eventualy Bob will slip or the wife will learn what she already suspects.
And the family calm that you saved for today will eventually crash and burn later.

My friend experienced this with her first husband. I always thought that not knowing removes a women's ability to choose the terms of her relationship. Bob holds all the control because he controls the truth... for now.

You made your choice and it can't be changed. That doesn't matter.

But, what if the wife continues in ignorance, only until her doctor tells her that Bob has given her AIDS, or genital warts or Herpes? Considering the alternatives she will be lucky if one of Bob's other partners tells her first.

12/2/05 10:14 AM

 
Blogger Avatar said...

I understand your position. But the responsibility to his marriage lies with Bob. Not with the partners he lied to about being single.

Anyone who's been betrayed in such a manner has my deepest sympathies. But too often, we rush to blame the "Other Woman", when in fact, it was the man who made the choice to stray, knowing full well what the consequences might be. Any anger, loss of respect, and dissolution of the marriage lies solely in the selfishness of the one who strayed.

12/25/05 2:22 PM

 
Blogger Pepper said...

Hello Avatar, how I commend your restraint. I don't know that I could have stopped myself from making darn sure BOB caught a glimpse of my raised eyebrow and puckered lips (think lemons not kisses)while I hoisted a pair of suburbian skivvies mid-air, as if to size them up on him,from a safe distance.Just perhaps a wink would escape from the corner of my eye...

1/1/06 8:24 PM

 
Blogger Rafael said...

You should've fronted that fool. Actually, you did the harder thing, but that guy's an ass

5/16/06 1:56 PM

 

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